micfranklin
04-15-2008, 02:47 AM
Okay here's the deal:
There's this girl I've been hanging out with for the past several months. We weren't necessarily boyfriend/girlfriend but let's just say we were close. Now we were close from September up until towards the first week of January. She went back home to Philly for winter break and for a few weeks I didn't hear from her, then just 4 days before spring semester started I woke up with a huge worry and decided to go to her house in the middle of the day in the cold, on the far west side of Baltimore County. I talked to her for maybe 5 minutes and then went home, feeling better that she's okay.
Now come the first day of semester when I meet her she was hardly making any eye contact with me, spent a lot of time on the phone and I did almost all the talking, even on the way home. Right before we parted ways that day I find out from her she's going through some personal/family type issues or "things you don't know nothing about," so I say get some rest. Turns out I wasn't causing no trouble.
Come the day after the Super Bowl she hurt my feelings, I end up punching the wall until my hand bleeds and right before we part ways again I kinda cried (quietly) while she was nearby, she asked me what was wrong and then she became sympathetic. So the next week is Valentine's Day, I'm alone because she's at work, that Friday there's a party on campus and we spend some time together Saturday, maybe because she felt bad about something.
Okay let me fast forward. Now I cannot seem to go a day without worrying about whether we're cool or not, because I told her earlier that I felt a certain way about her but now that I think about it nothing I have done since late February shows that I feel that way. And since her phone is broken so that she can't text me we rarely talk. I feel extremely guilty, I'm usually wondering whether she hates me or not (probably doesn't), I feel the need to wanna be near her all the time and it's seriously bugging me. I even looked on Wikipedia and I seem to be showing signs of anxiety, OCD, obsessive love and other stuff.
Advice? Suggestions?
There's this girl I've been hanging out with for the past several months. We weren't necessarily boyfriend/girlfriend but let's just say we were close. Now we were close from September up until towards the first week of January. She went back home to Philly for winter break and for a few weeks I didn't hear from her, then just 4 days before spring semester started I woke up with a huge worry and decided to go to her house in the middle of the day in the cold, on the far west side of Baltimore County. I talked to her for maybe 5 minutes and then went home, feeling better that she's okay.
Now come the first day of semester when I meet her she was hardly making any eye contact with me, spent a lot of time on the phone and I did almost all the talking, even on the way home. Right before we parted ways that day I find out from her she's going through some personal/family type issues or "things you don't know nothing about," so I say get some rest. Turns out I wasn't causing no trouble.
Come the day after the Super Bowl she hurt my feelings, I end up punching the wall until my hand bleeds and right before we part ways again I kinda cried (quietly) while she was nearby, she asked me what was wrong and then she became sympathetic. So the next week is Valentine's Day, I'm alone because she's at work, that Friday there's a party on campus and we spend some time together Saturday, maybe because she felt bad about something.
Okay let me fast forward. Now I cannot seem to go a day without worrying about whether we're cool or not, because I told her earlier that I felt a certain way about her but now that I think about it nothing I have done since late February shows that I feel that way. And since her phone is broken so that she can't text me we rarely talk. I feel extremely guilty, I'm usually wondering whether she hates me or not (probably doesn't), I feel the need to wanna be near her all the time and it's seriously bugging me. I even looked on Wikipedia and I seem to be showing signs of anxiety, OCD, obsessive love and other stuff.
Advice? Suggestions?